I have been blessed with children who love me and want the best for me. When they were little I prayed everyday that they would grow to be adults that were loving, caring, and self sufficient. I am thankful that they are all I prayed for. What I didn't realize was that they would be so much more than I prayed for. It is a wonderful to not limit God when you pray.
My son Greg and his wife Miranda are chiropractors and they worry about my medical and physical side. They give me advise on eating right, exercising, and getting chiropractic adjustments. Eating and exercising is critical for me as my autoimmune diseases eat my stomach lining, esophagus, and destroys my teeth enamel. My arthritis is located in my neck, lower back and hips. Chiropractic adjustments are critical to help with migraines and to enable me to sleep with less pain and the need of Advil every 4 hours, which of course messes with my stomach which is already ulcerated. They are concerned because I don't move enough and I need to move my body no matter how painful it is. Checkout their website: http://abbottfamilychiro.com/
Kat, my daughter, is a writer and works in Hollywood. Kat is my conscious. She worries about my spiritual side and how I am surviving in my everyday life. She is the reason I am starting this blog. She understands the part inside me that is so sad and lost. As a writer she understand how healing it is to get your bottled up emotions out. More important she understands that it's okay to talk about the bad things but to move on to positives things and that I can be an inspiration to others from this blog. Check out her website: http://www.katabbott.com/
What has been so hard for me is my family and friends wanting me never to talk about anything that is happening regarding these diseases. If I can't talk to them then who can I talk to. How do I get it out of my head and heart if I can never mention it? It has gotten to the point I am afraid to tell them when I am ill because they don't want to hear it. I can feel them cringe as I speak.
I fully understand how it upsets them but I haven't gotten it settled in my head/heart that I even have Sjogren's and RA. Not sure why I am so thick headed about it. DENIAL!!!! Most likely...no one wants to admit that they do not have the body and health they want.
When I envisioned my life at this age I never saw this. I saw myself riding bike, skiing, hiking, running basically doing anything I wanted.
I just spent a week with someone who is like a mother to me. I watched as she did nothing all day long. She didn't clean her house (though is was clean it needed vacuuming, spider's and aunts taken care of), she hadn't planted her flowers yet or weeded her garden, and she wasn't taking care of house things like getting her septic pumped, and getting her hearing aid fixed. She couldn't remember what she was doing or just did. (Another side effect of SS is brain fog much like dementia but accelerated if I don't eat right and get enough sleep but only temporary). What this did for me was to hold up a mirror that said this was who I was becoming if I didn't start to make changes NOW!
Stay tune for my baby steps forward........